It has been almost 1 year since I got to see and hold Bryan. He stayed with us for his whole spring break. We would go pick Maddox up from school and they would have long conversations in the car ride about what he learned. During the day, he would have tea parties with Peyton and her bears in the living room floor. He gave me countless bear hugs and kisses and told us all how much he missed us. We all had a great time that week, enjoying his company and hearing his stories. It all ended way too soon. When it was time for him to go back home, my family said their goodbyes to him and I walked him outside down the path in our backyard. I got down on my knees to his level and gave him a huge hug and told him how much I loved him and missed him. I knew it was going to be a while until I could see him next, but I didn’t know it was going to be my last time.
As each day goes by, I have good ones and bad ones. There are some days where I just want to crawl into a hole and cry. There are other days where we all remember funny stories with Bryan and laugh. Not a day goes by where he is not thought about though. I know he’s up there watching over us and still showing us signs that he’s around.
I can still remember his touch, the feeling of giving him a big hug and holding him close. The smell of his hair and running my fingers through his buzz cut. He knew how to give a good hug, that’s for sure!
It is still hard to believe that it has been almost 5 months since he left us…
Daddy loves you to pieces little buddy! <3